The Game 

Perhaps the world will forgive me, for I am indeed a dirty little liar after all. I’m just as manipulative and play just as dirty as the next psychopath out there. I can only hope that all the anonymous characters who have inspired my writings over the years will forgive me, for I know exactly what it is that I do. My purpose here is to teach and to educate to all those who read. And I know I’ve at least done some good, given the feedback I’ve received from fans and readers over time. So I hope now that all my ladies might gather around, and listen to the words that I have to say…

For those who have been with me a long time, you might have noticed a slight shift away from political matters to more relationship/personal matters. Nature has both blessed me and cursed me with the gift of being dramatic. I take what is inside and play upon it to create and to teach. 

The last few months have been more about love and passion and affairs of the heart. There are two sides of life; on the one hand there is the need to be serious and ensure one’s livelihood and on the other is the heart’s desire to be carefree and enjoy the short time we have on this earth. 

Man’s burden is in what he accomplishes and how he presents himself to the world; he pursues and often faces the humiliation of rejection. The woman’s dilemma is to hope to be pursued and if she is she must then carry the burden of determining a man’s true intentions towards her; of filtering, as I have said before in my writings on love, between men who wish a relationship with her and care about her and men who only wish to have sex with her. And if she chooses wrongly she could wake up to find the man long gone, with virtually all of the consequences of the act falling upon her. 

How many women have wisely held back even when the fevers started burning only to be glad they did when they discovered that all the man wanted was sex? Yet how many women have given in only to face the pain, heartbreak and physical repercussions that follow when they learned only too late what the man was really about? 

Woman holds the keys to sex. It is her power, possibly her only power, over man, and it should be used wisely. A man will say anything, or take any position, that might make it readily available to him.  Lies might spill forth from his mouth, but the real truth can only be revealed through his actions. A wise woman must hold back so she can see what a man’s really all about. This is where the man must pursue, and if he doesn’t something is probably not right. It is generally only when a woman makes it clear that sex cannot be forthcoming without a relationship, that the gig is up and the game is no longer working, and seeks that finality that the truth is revealed and the man shows his true colors. The man will then usually either step up or disappear (or, as is the case with some malicious characters, try to reappear and suck you back in again later on).   

A man’s weakness is his sex drive; a woman’s is her emotions. Both sexes manipulate the weaknesses of the other to obtain what they want. Most of us instinctively know when something is wrong, we know when we’re being manipulated. Generally the forms for seducing a man are purely visual and physical; for the woman they are psychological. Methods generally include breaking down a woman’s self-esteem and self worth and putting her on an emotional roller coaster ride. 

Some men play dirty, especially when they seek power and control. If experienced enough, a person can literally “do nothing” to induce a “crazy-making” effect. For those untrained in psychology, the forms of covert emotional manipulation can be difficult to spot. But woman was given the gift of intuition. If you feel something is off, it probably is. If you feel you’re being toyed with, you probably are. You know what your senses observe, you know when you’re being gaslighted, and you know what you perceive to be true even when you’re told you’re crazy or imagining things. 

This is important to understand. A woman must understand the game and choose wisely how she wishes to play. So much pain and heartbreak has resulted because of sexual revolution; as a result of abandoning old-fashioned wisdom. Only the foolish girl believes a few romps in a haystack means a man loves her. Times have changed, but nature hasn’t. It is still as important as ever for a woman to guard her sexuality and to guard her heart.

It’s even more important for a woman to understand the game and manipulation so as not to fall prey to it. The best way, of course, is to simply refuse to play the game at all. The best thing, and the most old-fashioned thing, is for a woman to simply sit back and let the man take the lead- if he’s ever going to. If not, then he’s either not interested or simply not ready to commit to a relationship with her. 

Rough & Soft 

If there is one thing that I’m sick of hearing it’s that “women love assholes.” No, actually, we don’t. Plenty of women still love men in spite of them being assholes, but no woman loves a man because of it. Not only is it tiring and emotionally damaging dealing with a man who’s an asshole, women actually have good reason to be wary of men who are assholes.

The basic fact of life is that males can easily represent danger to females. It’s actually a major fear for many women that we may come to like or love a man who turns out to be an asshole. After all, a man like that is often very unpredictable and could easily turn violent towards us or abandon us. Women always have reason to fear being physically harmed, raped or impregnated and abandoned by men therefore it makes no sense that we would seek out men who would hurt us. On the contrary, we would be (we are) attracted to dominate men who would protect us. 

Our biology can oftentimes be at odds with our heart’s desires. We want a man that’s strong and high status yet at the same time the very men that we desire could also easily hurt us. The “bad boy” type can be dreamy for many women because he’s confident, strong and charming yet there’s still a darkness lurking underneath the surface that can potentially cause a lot of harm to a woman. 

And, no, I do not actually like being degraded. Overpowered, yes, but always in a loving and gentle way. There’s nothing scarier than coming to love a man and wanting to relax, let down your guard, trust and follow him only to have him turn out to be abusive either physically or emotionally. Never in my life have I loved a man and listed under the characteristics of why I loved him as “he treats me like dirt and regularly disappears on me. Oh he’s so dreamy!” 

In my mind romance always happens by a strong man but also a loving man. There’s always the typical fairy-tale element of being rescued from some sort of danger and being the damsel in distress. Yet at the same time the man isn’t “soft” or emotional either. He loves me, is devoted to me, yet at the same time knows how to play it cool as well. 

Men who are assholes are actually repulsive and this isn’t just something I’ve come to hate because I’ve gotten sick of men with age. Even as a teenager I did not like men who were assholes. I still loved strong men, but not assholes. Yes, it did seem that “assholes” had a lot of sex, but the women they were having sex with were generally very promiscuous and also had sex with a lot of other men too. They weren’t getting “high quality” feminine women by any means.

I’ll never forget when I was only like 18 years old a man declaring to me how much women “just love assholes.” I remember my mouth just dropping open in unconcealed disgust at the things he was saying. He would then go on to tell a couple of stories about men treating women like shit and I remember searching the whole time he was talking for a possible escape away from the guy and away from the conversation. I was sure glad to be away from the guy. But, hey, the guy obviously knew everything. Who was I to argue? Especially since he was already middle-aged I bet he was a real hit with the ladies. 

There are many things that come into play when it comes to who we love and who we desire. Oftentimes it is also forgotten that being a man (as well as being a high quality woman) is also about moral character as well. A man must necessarily play a bit “hard to get” in the relationship department. Men who are too charming and too nice tend to scare away women. The reason is obvious. Not only would a too nice and emotional man tend to come off as more feminine but he would also raise our suspicions because we would think he’s up to something. I’d think he was just trying to kiss my ass to get something out of me (like the one thing men always want from women or perhaps that he was a bum looking to exploit whatever resources I might have). He would be perceived instantly as a “player” who goes around charming women just to get in their pants. So, a man can’t really afford to be a “nice guy” but at the other end of the spectrum is the jerk- which isn’t good either. 

MRA types would swear women like jerks and assholes and all of us are promiscuous sl*ts who just love being used by men and treated like garbage and we are out of our prime by the mature age of 25 and that they are all gods who’s “shelf life” never expires etc, etc, etc… and all men have to do is “show a woman who’s boss” for women to somehow be magically chasing them (instead of the traditional way of men pursuing women and actually having to make an effort and better themselves to attract and keep women). But this (as well as many other of their “Red Pill” cult truths) just simply isn’t true (or, at best, is greatly blown out of proportion). As Andrew from “The Rules Revisited” so wonderfully put it

“Yes, it is partially true that society has lost sight of what these guys call “red pill” truths; I am not denying that. But the very fact that they use metaphors from The Matrix should hint at the fact that many of them have issues with attracting women; and the almost singular focus on pointing out female shortcomings should suggest that maybe, just maybe, they hold their world-view because it conveniently puts them back into the place of power they feel so incapable of occupying.”

Lessons in Love

For wrong or right, for better or worse, the heart wants what it wants. It cannot be helped, it cannot be stopped, and reason rarely plays a role in what it so desires. But no matter how much it hurts, loving another does not mean that they will ever love you back in return.

The only way into my body is through my heart. The desire is not inborn so much as it is sparked to life by what I perceive in a man. It starts within the man as something I sense and then respond to. This can be why lack of female sexual desire is an extremely common occurrence, but such a thing is rarely seen in a society’s men to the same extent.

Throughout all societies, in all of human history, men have always been able to obtain commitment-free sex if they so desired. This isn’t anything new in the slightest. There isn’t anything exceptional going on today that has not existed throughout all of human history.

But by the circumstances under which we give sex to our men, we teach them how they are to treat us.

Women are manipulators of men. A man might get led around by a woman and played for a fool, it’s true. But whatever his losses, it can be regained in the future. But it can never compare to the damage a man can inflict upon a woman through his manipulation. Men who manipulate women for sex leave damaged broken women, illegitimate offspring and a trail of destruction that impacts all of society, as human sexuality comprises the foundation of human society.

The hurt and pain and damage cannot be undone-ever. There is no way for a woman to recover the loss. It is permanent, it is lasting, and it is severe.

A man may have an interest in one woman but readily take sex from another who is willing if the woman he is interested in will not give it to him. But women do not operate the same way.

There are a million things that run through my head. It’s not so much my body I’m concerned about, but my heart. Sure, he might be packing some disease. That’s a realistic concern. Sure, there’s pregnancy. But I’m a big girl, in full charge of my reproduction, and the chance of pregnancy is very small.

No. What I ask myself inside is this: If I give him my body, would he then rip out my heart?

A man that cares will go out of his way to find out what is wrong if he knows you are hurting. A man who cares would not ignore a woman for weeks or months and leave her to cry her heart out. A man that cares will go out of his way for you and he wouldn’t need any excuses to do so. A man that wants you and cares will pursue you. If he can’t initiate, if he can’t be the pursuer, then he either isn’t all that interested or simply doesn’t care enough. To the extent that he doesn’t reach out, is the extent that he simply doesn’t care.  Plain and simple. No exceptions.

It doesn’t matter how much it hurts. A woman must always be alert to a man’s true intentions and filter out the men that care vs the men that only want sex from her.

A woman must understand that men do not necessarily equate sex with love. A man will sometimes even have sex with a woman he can’t even stand, if she’ll give it to him. What can a woman do?

He might say he cares, but talk is cheap. What do his actions say? Does he ignore you if you text him? When you call? Does he only call in the middle of the night, randomly, when he’s drunk with his buddies? Does he only speak to you if it’s convenient? Does he dissappear and reappear?

Understand that having sex with a man will never make him care about you or love you if he doesn’t already. Yes, sometimes it can turn into a relationship, even a lasting one, but are you willing to take that chance?

By the circumstances under which she gives him sex, and the behavior she will put up with, a woman tells a man what behavior is and is not acceptable to her; she shows him what her value is.

Even if he has captured her heart, a woman should never put up with game playing. Yes, he may be a man you love dearly. But just because you love him does not mean he feels the same. If he has left you alone to hurt for weeks or months he’ll probably show up again at some point and even try to charm you or invite you over and proposition sex.

But no matter how much your heart, even your body, might desire him, by instantly jumping through hoops and re-arranging her schedule to accommodate his whims and  going to him on his terms a woman only tells a man that it’s OK for him to treat her as a mere convenience or afterthought and that she’s on the hook and he can simply reel her in anytime he wants and he can just reappear and dissappear as he pleases because she’ll always be there.

This isn’t about women attempting to claim dominance over men, but rather about a woman making it clear to a man that she demands a higher level of respect and devotion if he is to ever have her body. If he can’t give that respect and devotion then he does not care and giving him your body will never make him care. It will only damage a woman and leave her broken.

It’s a hard lesson but that’s the way life is. In her greater weakness and vulnerability a woman must be careful to guard her heart and body. A man should only get so many chances- no exceptions. If enough time has passed and he still can’t be real and show how much he cares then he probably never will. He doesn’t get another chance. He had his chance, he chose to play around, and now he can’t have you back in his life. Ever.

Remember, it doesn’t matter how you feel about him. A woman can’t let a man play with her heart and emotions or let him waste her time. Plain and simple. It hurts and that pain can be severe. It can feel as though you are truly dying inside. But if he hasn’t seen fit to make you a part of his life by now, he probably never will (or at least never will until he knows you are serious and he can’t have you back). You must cut him out of your life and move on.

At first a woman might let a man run his game to show her what he’s got and raise her interest and desire. But once he’s got you he needs to either get real or get lost. He can’t have his cake and eat it too. If he wants you then he must make an effort or he can’t have you. Because your body should only be for a man who will return the same love and devotion that you have shown to him. A woman’s body should only ever be for a man who is committed to her, truly there for her. It is for the man who loves her, cares for her and takes care of her/supports her. A woman should never settle for less. 

That doesn’t mean he must become all emotional and get in touch with his feminine side. Not at all. It only means that you  are worth more than being treated cheaply by a man- any man. 

Unless, of course, your heart’s innermost desire is to be booty-call girl. 

Then, by all means…

But if enough time has passed and he still can’t be bothered, then he should just consider that he had his chance. 

And his time is up.

And he can’t have you back. 

Even if you love him for the rest of your life it doesn’t matter. That’s just how it has to be. Because if he doesn’t care by now then he never will. It doesn’t matter if it hurts. We lose those we care for in this life and that’s just the way it is. And a woman can never, should never, allow herself to be used and abused by men who only want to have easy sex with her. 

Passion II: Fantasy

“I sleep, but my heart waketh: it is the voice of my beloved that knocketh, saying, Open to me…

My beloved put in his hand by the hole of the door, and my bowels were moved for him…

I opened to my beloved, but my beloved had withdrawn himself, and was gone: my soul failed when he spake: I sought him, but I could not find him; I called him, but he gave me no answer…” (Song of Solomon 5:2;4;6, KJV)

Last night I had the sweetest dream
I dreamt that he came to me
And he filled me so completely
He was exactly as I imagined he would be

I woke up still in a daze, eyes glazed
It all felt so real

For years he knows he’s captivated my thoughts
Passionate feelings of both love and hate

Delicate beauty in the flower of youth compared to the lines upon his face
Memories that time will never erase

Once upon a time it’s true that he took care of me
But he’s not the same person that he used to be

He can never be all I imagine him to be
No more, no less, he is but a fantasy

“He leaned forward slightly and a dark face took form from the shadows, a form as beautiful as Orignial Sin must have seemed to Eve, with all its lure and its pain. As eyes the smoky green of storm seas caught hers and held, a phrase from Milton’s Paradise Lost whispered through her mind:

‘His form had yet not lost
All his original brightness, nor appeared
Less than Archangel ruined…'”(Monson, Stormfire, 1984)

He does nothing but play games with my heart
He can never see fit to make me a part of his life
Compared to one who would make me his wife

I’m floating like I barely exist
I imagine his touch and I burn with desire
But I look into his eyes and I know he’s a liar

He’s become a temptation, but I will resist
Not so hard to do when half the time he pretends like I don’t exist

Got this petite 110-pound frame;
Half woman, half child, with this .68 WHR
Any man would want it
But I’ll be neither used nor abused

I’ll never be any man’s mistake
Nor will I give myself away to a man who in the long-term won’t stay

I’ll never come to him
But instead stay with what’s true and real

What happens when the fires burn out?
One offers me security and love
The other nothing but heartbreak and doubt

He says to me “come” but I never will
Because he’s just a fantasy
And that’s all he’ll ever be

Fine wine sweetens my tongue and blurs my mind
I only wish that time I could rewind

Inside there’s strong emotion tied to aching need
But I’ll never let him get away with breaking me in two
Then proceeding to tell me how he’s through

I will say no
To him I’ll never go

I know he thinks he’s going to win
But I’ll never open up and let him in

I’ll put a wall up that he’ll never get past
No matter how long these feelings might last

Though he may forever haunt my memory
He’s a fantasy- and that’s all he’ll ever be

Letter to My Daughter

Dearest Daughter,

In the coming years many changes are going to happen in your life and in your body. There may come a time when you even wish to have children of your own, although I honestly believe you’d be happier if you didn’t. As my mother always told me, it’s a decision you can’t undo and once you’ve done it you’ve given away your life to someone else and tied yourself down to someone for a lifetime that you may well come to resent. Once you have even one your life is gone and will never be the same. Without children your life is yours and if you become too unhappy and the situation too unbearable you can always just walk away and be responsible for none other than yourself and have no complications. And if you do decide to have them, make sure the man is reliable and committed to supporting you and that he is someone you truly wish to tie yourself down with for a lifetime. 

Never give sex to a man or have children in the hopes of having a relationship with him. Your sexuality will be your greatest power. Never allow a man to devalue your worth through sex or childbirth unless he is truly worthy and truly committed- unless you’re sure without a doubt that he’s the one. Only give away your sexuality and body to him once he has met you on your terms and you have obtained the relationship you desire from him. 

Your sexual power will be most potent in your youth- be sure never to allow a man to waste it- and certainly never waste it partying or pursuing a career unless you’re sure that’s what you want out of life. 

If you are ever with a man that you desire a long-term relationship/marriage with yet the relationship is simply not progressing, and enough time has passed, then cut him off. Make him commit or break it off. Never allow him to string you along for months and years when nothing is to come of it. Your sexual power will wane some as you age, but never doubt that you will always have it even as you mature. It will fade some, but never completely. 

Take care of yourself physically and guard your heart well. Be kind, loving and vulnerable- but never a fool or doormat. Never give a man your submission until you have his commitment and his responsibilities towards you established firmly. 

As you grow into your teenage years and beyond the boys around you will have intense sex drives that you probably won’t understand. They will seek to be players and jerks because they resent the sexual power you hold over them and seek to weaken it. Realize they will all want sex from you as nature has decreed that their drives will be intense yet they won’t have to pay the consequences- unless you and the society make them. 

Learn to recognize their game and remember it well. As every male knows, he cannot just come up and ask you for what it is he wants (never doubt it will almost always be sex) lest he be perceived as a creep and send you fleeing from him. He knows the answer will be a “no” if he were to simply ask. He must instead play psychological games with you to make you susceptible to his prerogatives. He’ll run his game to up his status in your eyes in the hopes that you’ll choose him. He wants your thoughts and attention on him. 

Whether he’s sixteen or sixty rest assured he’s still fantasizing about twenty year-old p****. He’ll insult you, ignore you, act indifferent, confuse you, flip hot and cold on you and make you jealous. Many men will become nasty and spiteful and degrade your value as a female. They’ll make it all about them, even though it’s really all about you and your approval.

Since it’s impossible to know what a man really means by what he says, you must instead pay attention to what he does. Never initiate contact or approach him first or you will never be sure the extent of his interest or what you really mean to him. Let him initiate and if he doesn’t then you’ll know he doesn’t care that much and isn’t that interested. By initiating the contact you will never know whether he just wants your body or whether it is a relationship he seeks. And remember, make him meet you on your terms before you ever give it away. 

If he begins to ignore you then don’t pursue him. Have no contact with him and go on about your life. He might stay gone forever or he might come back around. If he does come back around then you can decide if he’s even worth your time. If you still want him then make him commit or send him on his way, without giving in sexually, if he cannot do so. Don’t waste your time with him if he’s not truly worth it and don’t ever let him keep you in an emotionally unbalanced state for weeks, months or years. 

If a man ever breaks up with you then cut him off. Again, have no contact. None (unless it’s inevitable that you see each other but never purposely contact him- for any reason). He made the decision to let you go- make him live with it

Remember that wounds always hurt the worst when they are freshest- but they will heal in time. Some wounds are severe enough to plague us for a lifetime and some never heal completely- but you can still go on living. You will get hurt in this life and you will face heartbreak. Let the person go and cut them off. They’ll either stay gone forever or they’ll come back around in time to make it right- but either way you have a life to live. Either way at least you’ll know for sure what you do or do not mean to them and have not played the fool or caused yourself unnecessary pain. 

Remember that you want a strong man, not a weak one. If a man ever shows signs of becoming financially dependent upon you or holds any kind of a grudge about paying for dates then cut him out of your life immediately. This is a very bad sign. Although you’ll hear some say it can be done and tell you their success stories, you will only end up resenting him in the end and he will be more likely to abuse you and cheat on you if you allow him to be dependent on you. A man won’t respect you or be motivated in life when you give him money- so don’t put up with it. 

Never suppress your femininity no matter what the prevailing culture says. Always seek to be a lady and never one of the guys. Accentuate what makes you a woman and what makes you different. There are still many things to learn that cannot all be contained here, but that will come. 

I tell you all this because I love you and wish to spare you much pain and heartbreak in life. And rest assured that you are never a mistake and will always be dearly loved and cherished.